I was raised in a patriarchal family cult in the forest miles away from civilization. My only friends were my siblings. I was trained to be co-dependent. I was taught women were second-class. I was raised to be a doormat. This is my past – a past filled with spiritual and emotional abuse.
I’ve left the false teachings, but still have a lot of emotional baggage. I am still harassed by family members. I still feel the pain.
I know there are others like me, many others. Your background may be different, it may be similar, but what we have in common is emotional abuse. We’ve been manipulated. We’ve been wounded. We have scars. We’ve been trained to fear. Trained not to question. Trained not to speak out.
I’m breaking free of my toxic past, but it still haunts me. I’m scared – scared of being hurt. People can be really mean. Some do it intentionally, others out of ignorance. It’s just hard to trust. So here I am. I’m on a journey of spiritual and personal discovery.
I believe in God.
I believe in love.
I believe they are one and the same.